After my parents divorce when I was 4 years old, we moved in with my step Dad. It was a different kind of household than I was used to while living with my Dad. The household was very strict, and he could be very judgmental.

 

Living in this kind of environment, I felt judged, criticized and like I was always getting in trouble for who I was, how I felt, what I said, and what I did or didn’t do .

 

Overtime, I began to create the belief that I was bad and wrong because I felt like whenever I was being myself I would get in trouble. I could only sustain this pain I felt of being wrong for so long, so I unconsciously learned what I thought was the best way to adapt.

 

If I was bad or wrong, what would happen if I was someone else? Maybe I wouldn’t get in trouble?

 

In that moment, I chose to become ...

A people pleaser.

A perfectionist.

Anyone but me, because I believed that by being me, I got in trouble.

 

I slowly lost who I was.

I became afraid to make any choices for myself.

I became afraid to trust myself.

I became afraid to express myself and what I loved.

I began to look outside of myself for clues as to who I needed to be so that I would be considered “good”, “right”, loved, accepted, and safe.

 

This fear of being myself led me to an identity breakdown and I completely rejected who I was. I didn't know myself anymore.

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At the time, I didn’t know that this belief would be imprinted into my whole being and be playing out unconsciously into my adult years.

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One day, the universe decided it was time to wake me up to release the illusion that I had been living in. To show me that I am enough, there is nothing I need to change, and I AM perfect exactly the way I am right now!

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My wake up came in the form of a pretty bad concussion. Little did I know, the wind that pushed my hatchback door down on my head, would change the whole trajectory of my life.

 

I got the message loud and clear that something needed to shift in my life! I was a

personal trainer and had owned a CrossFit gym for 10 years. Helping people change their lives from the inside out was the most incredible feeling! While I loved that feeling, my wake up call opened my eyes to see that I was here to have a greater impact on other's lives.

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After a couple months, I was not recovering from my concussion, so I thought there was something wrong with me. This led me to becoming a certified Reiki healer. At the time, I didn't realize, I chose Reiki to try and “fix” myself.

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I began to distract myself from feeling broken, lost and purposeless, by trying to create what I thought was a soul led business, by sharing what I learned.

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I researched, I analyzed, I took courses and picked up lots of tools from other coaches and healers to help “FIX” myself and others like it was my full time job....

 

But for some reason I wasn’t feeling any healthier, happier, or attracting clients. I was just as lost and frustrated as I was when I started. I wondered why? And then I came to the conclusion it was because I had not proved that the tools worked on myself, I had not fixed myself!

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But, nothing was working for me. I felt like I tried everything!

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I felt like a fraud.... sharing things that I had not fully embodied within me.

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I felt like there was always something that needed to be healed within me.

I thought to myself, why would anyone want to work with you, unless you have healed yourself, right?

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Like the quote says - “Physician, heal thyself”

 

Or you could say.... “Healer, heal thyself”

 

This was my second wake up call.... I was still believing that there was something I needed to fix about myself. Every action I was taking was coming from a space of not being good enough and needing to change.

 

I was still believing there is something wrong with me.

 

And you know what I discovered? If you have the belief that there is something wrong with you... You will ALWAYS find something to fix. It all became so clear, my vision of myself was being projected on to others. I was trying to help others fix themselves too! I was telling others there is something wrong with them and they needed to be fixed with my teachings!

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In one moment, I made a choice that changed my WHOLE LIFE...

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I chose to,

Stop believing that there is something wrong with me.

Stop pretending to be someone that felt safer.

Stop wearing my mask.

Get to know the little girl that has been hiding.

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My life was never the same again.

 

I noticed instant results...

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I was being seen for the first time.

I was being heard for the first time.

People were treating me as a strong, empowered woman.

I began to feel a sense of wholeness and safety within myself.

I began to love and accept aspects of myself I had hid from.

I began to ask the question, how can I support myself, not try and change.

I began to attract amazing things into my life that I was trying to for years.

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AND... my relationship with my Step Dad changed. He began to treat me as an adult, with equality, kindness, and support. He even told me he loved and was proud of me for the first time in my life.

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After this deep shift in every cell of my being, my mission shifted!

 

To sum it all up, I am now choosing to empower and remind YOU that You are Enough!

 

Hell, You are better than enough!

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YES YOU!

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You are uniquely perfect, just like your fingerprint, exactly the way you are right now.

As a Certified Laser Coach and Healer, I help You create a new relationship with yourself by learning how to love and accept all aspects of yourself.

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Are you ready to go on a journey of Self Discovery? Or shall I say, Self Remembering.

 

Are you ready to be the one that truly believes in YOU?

 

Are you ready to love and accept all aspects of YOU?

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Together, we will rediscover every intricate, amazing detail that makes You, uniquely YOU!

 

I would be honoured to go on this journey with you and help You become Your biggest cheerleader!
 

xoxo

Deanna Lynn

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If you are ready to get started today, I invite you to book a Free Call with me!

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